The Other Side of Weng Meiling

[Interview with Yawng Neiwen]


When the news of the sudden death of Weng Meiling shocked the entire Wutai Mountains, no one believed or wanted to see the news was true. How could the beautiful and optimistic Weng Mei-ling seek death? Her career was going strong, she had a steady boyfriend, and she had both career and love. However, an interview at the production centre with Weng Meiling gave me a real insight into another side of her.

"Everyone thinks I should be content and happy, right? But if I tell you that I have nothing at all, that I have achieved nothing. Would you believe me?"

The look on Weng Meilings face was genuine, not her usual smiling face, but a look of bewilderment and a sad face. I could only chin my head, it had happened so suddenly and I couldn't think of the right words to say to comfort her.

"I've been so depressed lately, I feel like I'm not what I used to be. I really regret that I wasted too much time at the mahjong table. It's a thrill to win!"

"You can talk to your friends if you have something on your mind, and you will feel better if you talk about it!

"Hmph! My friends around me can't help me at all!"

"Not even Kent?"

"Not even Kent!" This time, she said in a very positive tone. She is tired of people talking about her and Kent's relationship.

"Who can predict what will happen in the future? Sometimes I don't even know how I feel about Kent!"

What she hates the most is the right and wrong in this circle.

"In the past, I didn't guard against people, but now I can't help it. I've been hurt and I know how to protect myself!"

When it comes to her career, her eyes light up again and she discusses her "8-5 plan" with me.

"Career is number one, number two and number three."

"What about love?"

She only gave me a distant smile, not a positive answer.

"Don't worry! I've always been like that, sometimes I'm very complicated and pessimistic but I'll be fine after a while."

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翁美玲的另一面

【訪談亞翁內文】
翁美玲遽然逝世的消息震驚整個五台山,大家都不相信也不願見這個消息是真的。外表美麗樂觀的翁美玲,怎會去尋死?她事業如日中天,又有固定的男朋友,事業愛情兩兼得,她怎會捨得放下這一切,冒然結束自己的生命呢?然有一趟在製作中心內與翁美玲詳談,也使我真正了解到另一面的翁美玲,她是那麼的不快樂、那麼的悲觀。

「人人都覺得我應該滿足,應該快樂,對嗎?
 但若果我告訴你,我根本一無所有,一事無成時,
 你相信我的說話嗎?」

阿翁的表情是很真摯,沒有慣常的嘻笑臉,眼神掠過是一大片的茫然,以及一張愁苦的臉孔。我只能頷首,事情來得太突然,我也想不出什麼適當的說話去安慰阿翁。

「最近我情緒很低落,有點覺今是而昨非,我真的好
 後悔,自己過去浪費太多時間在麻雀檯上,但我也
 有理由,因為我有太多的問題想不通,打牌可以麻
 醉我,有錢嬴,也是一種刺激!」

「你有心事可以向身邊的朋友傾訴,把難題吐出,自己會舒服很多!」
「哼!我身邊的朋友根本幫不了我的忙!」

「連阿湯也不可以?」
「阿湯也不可以!」這下,翁美玲是以很肯定的口吻說。
 她很厭煩別人老是談論她與阿湯的離離合合。

「將來的事情誰可以預料?
 有時連我自己也不知道對阿湯的感情是怎樣的!」
 她最討厭是這個圈子裡的是是非非。

「從前我是不防人的,但現在不防不行,有時坦白
 也是罪過,我受過傷害,懂得保護自己!」

談到事業,她的眼睛回復了光采,
還與我商議她的「八五大計」。
「事業是第一、第二、第三位。」
「那愛情呢?」

阿翁只拋給我一個縹緲的笑容,沒有正面的回答。
「你放心吧!我這個人向來是如此,有時候想得很複雜,
 很悲觀,但過一下就沒有事的了。」

 

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