Barbara was the only reason why I stayed in England. Now Barbara had gone out of my life I immediately started to build up a social life in Holland. I joined a volleyball and athletic club and my oldest brother introduced me into the student life. Within no time I had build up my own social network in Holland. When I was back at college in Norwich, I continued the life I was leading before we broke up. The Friday night that always was reserved for Barbara was soon taken over by other activities. Barbara was right, I enjoyed my life at college and she didn't have to be there for me to do so.
At first I expected that Barbara would get in touch with me, but she never did. She also had no contact with our friends in Cambridge. She had disappeared from my life. After a while I accepted that and assumed that she had found her peace and that she was much happier now. Having my busy life in a setting where Barbara never was part off, made it easier for me to accept this and to get on with my life. I am a very positive person, I always try to see the best side of things, no matter what happens. The thought that Barbara had her peace now was enough for me to accept that our relation had ended. Like some people say, just pick up the pieces and start again.
The most difficult period for me was during the summer holiday. My parents were married 25 years. As a present my brothers and I rented a house in the middle of France for two weeks, so that we all could have a family holiday together. This was painful, just me alone while my brothers were there with their girlfriends. Barbara should have been there, we would have had a fantastic time. It was just what she wanted, being part of a close family, spending a holiday together.
After this I went on my own for a three week holiday to Greece. There I teamed up with some Greeks. They showed me what the real Greek life is like. It was a wonderful holiday. Those Greeks treated me as if I was part of their families. They invited me to all kinds of places and family happenings.
After the summer holiday I went back to Norwich to start my final year and picked my student life again and still no news or signs from Barbara.
(thanks to Natalie for the translation)