The story that Barbara became famous was for me one of the strangest and unexpected things in Barbara's life. What she achieved in HK was completely the opposite of the ambitions she had in England. This is something I am still trying to understand. As I got the feeling that this may be the answer to why she was so unhappy in HK.
Barbara never showed any ambition in being a movie star or a singer or playing music or being a television star. The CCAT was a school with a lot of performance art possibilities. You could get acting lessons or music/singing lesson, all free of charge and during school time. I followed guitar lessons. But Barbara never showed any interest in music or acting, she didn't even mention it or spoke about wanting to learn this. She never went to see a play, not even when she lived in London. I liked to see movies and therefore we often went to the cinema, Barbara didn't take any initiative in seeing movies.
Barbara did some experimenting in the show business, but that wasn't because she wanted this herself, she did it because people persuaded her to go for it (I wasn't one of them). She competed in the miss Chinatown contest in London in 1979. She became second. Due to this result she got her picture in nearly all of the national newspapers. It could have been a start for a new career in modeling, but she didn't make any effort in this. One time she was asked by a photographer for a photo shoot , also in 1979. After she attended this photo session she told me that she was not going to do this again. She got fed up with the continue changing of clothes and using the make up. Barbara didn't use make up and she was not a fashion follower. It is so strange to me that Barbara didn't make use of the opportunities she had in London, if she dreamed of being a famous television star.
Barbara's ambition were very simple, she wanted a happy family life (something she never had and she idealized). A nice job, a husband, a couple of kids, a few animals. Just a stable and secure life. It was because this ambition we finally broke up, at that time I wasn't ready for this type of life.
thanks to Natalie for the translation