The journalist 梁佩仪 interviewed Barbara on 13 may 1985. It turned out to be Barbara's last interview. Thanks to Weiwei for finding this article for me and translating it.
The Title: It's destined I and Kent can't be together.
I was shocked by the sad news that Barbara was died from gas poisoning at home last night.
It seems everything is destined. I was at her home talking with her at about 11am yesterday, it's her last interview! I am scared.
It's right, she was depressed at that time...
Never thought Kent and Barbara could break up with each other.
I felt the seriousness of this problem after reading the news about Kent and other actress going to the beach for fun on May 12.
I phoned Barbara in the morning, she answered me with drowsiness: "What a nuisance! Call me so early, what do you want to do?"
"I just want to stop by, don't sleep more, you will become a lazy piggy"
"Okay, you come here at 12pm, we have lunch together"
I reached her home at 11:30pm, Barbara got up already, she asked me: "What would you like to drink?". I shook my head and showed her that picture about Kent with other actress on the beach, asked her: "Did you see it?"
Barbara squinted and looked at the picture for a few seconds: "No, I didn't busy with new TV series, working or sleeping, no time to read newspaper. This photo is nothing special!
I said: "There is something special, because you're not there! It's Saturday,t hey went swimming, why just you were absent?
Barbara answered: "I had to work!" Her tone was dryness and cold, and she went to the kitchen for making coffee directly without turning around.
I kept silence for a while, she came back to the living room from kitchen and said: "It's not a big deal, I had no time to stay with Kent, he had fun with his friends, we're like that most of time...and...even if I didn't need to work, I wouldn't go with him, because I don't like swimming.".
I told her: "Other people saw Kent swimming with another actress, they just think you broke up with him and they are a couple now."
Barbara said: "Let it go, I have no idea about it. They said I was with Michael Miu before, it's nothing with him actually, I have been okay with those gossip."
I asked her again: "You and Kent are really not close like before?"
Barbara looked at the cup in front of her, said slowly: "It's difficult to talk about it, I tell you, we are good just like before, but too many things happened on me with gossip. Sometimes they say I steal this girl's boyfriend, sometimes they say I steal that girl's boyfriend. I don't know how to deal with it, maybe because I look outgoing and cause all the misunderstanding."
I asked: "You mean Jaime Chik?"
Barbara answered: "Oh...it's long time ago, she did misunderstand me because she thought I would be with Michael Miu...well, it's impossible for me to do that."
"If she told me directly not to get close with Michael, I would feel better...But she just complained behind my back, I feel very uncomfortable."
She looked solemn with a deeper lower voice: "I have felt annoyed and perplexed recently, the relationship is getting me nowhere...I tried to find spiritual sustenance in work, but I couldn't..."
I asked: "Don't go further between you and Kent?"
She nodded: "Love is not the whole life...I think I only have some feeling for him,
friction(disagreement) between us has increased."
I asked again: "Friction...Why?"
Barbara said: "All daily trivial matters, maybe we have been together for long time, know clearly about each other's shortcomings, quarrel happens inevitably...maybe it's destined I and Kent can't be together."
Barbara sat there and didn't move, just like a statue, the air around us seemed frozen because of her voice, I had a sense of pressure.
She said: "I just wanted to have a beautiful memory when I joined Miss HK pageant contest. Later I joined TVB,I thought I would leave everything here and go back to England if my career was unsuccessful...but I didn't realize it's full of frustration."
I said: "You are very emotional."
Barbara said: "Yes I am very emotional, sometimes I feel depressed for no reason at all, especially recently. "She raised her head and looked at me: "I am desperately unhappy."
I said: "You keep telling me that the relationship can't move on further...why don't you say goodbye to him, avoid nonsense and make yourself in a mess."
Barbara looked stupefied, maybe she had never thought about it before and she started thinking about something when I told her.
With a deep sigh, she said: "I am old-flashed(conservative) about relationship, it's not like changing a book or something else...it's not easy...I still cherish this relationship, but it's troubling me now."
I said: "don't get into a blind alley in a relationship...live happily for today not tomorrow."
Barbara answered:" Yes, let it go, I have thought positively, but still feel unhappy."
Barbara had been getting thinner every day, her cheeks had sunk in recently, it made her more skinny. She told me that she didn't want to eat anything, because no relatives or friends around could who listen to her...only have a god sister with which she could have a talk, she said she was very lonely.
I looked at the watch, it's 12:30pm already.
Barbara said: "I am sorry, ask you to have lunch together, but we are only talking without eating anything...now I have to go back to TVB for TV-series."
I asked: "Do you want to go out for something to eat with me together?"
She shook her head: "I don't feel like eating anything."
I asked again: "How about tomorrow....I come to take some photos in your summer dresses?"
Barbara said: "Fine, you call me at about 11pm after I got home from work."
I called her at 11:30pm, the phone rang for long time but no one answered.
Then I called her every ten minutes, but still no one answered till 1:30am. So I gave up.
Later Stephen Chau sent Barbara to the hospital, he told the polices that Barbara called him and said it's hard to live, she was tired of living.
Then when I called Barbara at that time, she had fainted by gas poisoning or died already...
May 13,1985 written by 梁佩仪
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